Hi guys!
Wow, it’s been awhile. I hadn’t realized it’s almost 2
months since my last posting. Life tends to fly by sometimes when you aren’t
paying attention, doesn’t it?!?!
The school year ended in May and so I was just relaxing for
a few weeks (my brain was completely strained from the math course I took…I am
no math wizard! Haha.) I had so many plans of school related things I wanted to
get done this summer:
Study and test out of my next math class
Study and test out of my humanities class
Study for and take the GRE (Graduate Record Exam
– Grad school admissions test)
Get involved in volunteer activities in the
psychology community in my city
WELLLLL…since my divorce is now beginning the legal process,
that has been so stressful to me that unfortunately, over the last month I have
been able to accomplish nearly nothing on that list :( It makes me so sad!!!
Between dealing with my ex and his mood swings, dealing with kids (who are
themselves out of school for the summer), and trying to sell half my belongings
and move out of my house so I can sell it, school hasn’t exactly been my top
priority.
There is a lot going on you can see. My head is kind of
swirling most of the time and I feel quite overwhelmed, like there is a lot
hanging over my head. I HATE that feeling. I am a list maker, a checker-offer.
I like knowing I accomplished things and have them under my belt. Stuff that
hangs in limbo…leaves me feeling anxious :/
So, that is where I am now! Summer is half way down and it
is my goal to AT LEAST test out of my math class, at the bare minimum. The rest
of the school stuff may have to wait. I’m in a bit of a rush to get my house on
the market, hopefully a month from now, so there is a lot happening.
My mental state is….OK. I go on meds and I go off them…that
is just the nature of things I guess. Once my divorce is final (it seems to be
getting dragged out slowly and painfully, unfortunately) I think my mental
state will improve drastically. No longer being attached in any way to a toxic
relationship will help me so much to move forward and try to make positive
changes in my life. Right now I’m still sort of dangling in limbo-land while
things are not finalized. And that is the toughest part!!!
Good luck with your math. Math is not fun. I took a calculus class but only passed because I wrote this sad note on the back of my final exam talking about personal things that I would only bring up if I wanted to manipulate the professor into giving me a better grade...so don't do that!
ReplyDeleteYou seem fine although the pressure of a divorce with children sounds too extreme for me. I give you all the respect that I would give anybody dealing with an incredibly difficult situation. Your life also brings me back to mine as well. I majored in philosophy in school but I didn't study for the G.R.E., failed, and then never took it again! Perhaps you can triumph where I failed! Perhaps you will inspire me to change but either way it seems that you are on the right track!
I found that staying on my meds is the best response to any life circumstance. Hope all goes well with the completion of the divorce. Stay blessed!
ReplyDeleteStay on your medication.
ReplyDeleteWe all - bi polar with varying degrees of the illness - need that stability.
Have a lovely night.