Hi guys!
Wow, it’s been awhile. I hadn’t realized it’s almost 2
months since my last posting. Life tends to fly by sometimes when you aren’t
paying attention, doesn’t it?!?!
The school year ended in May and so I was just relaxing for
a few weeks (my brain was completely strained from the math course I took…I am
no math wizard! Haha.) I had so many plans of school related things I wanted to
get done this summer:
Study and test out of my next math class
Study and test out of my humanities class
Study for and take the GRE (Graduate Record Exam
– Grad school admissions test)
Get involved in volunteer activities in the
psychology community in my city
WELLLLL…since my divorce is now beginning the legal process,
that has been so stressful to me that unfortunately, over the last month I have
been able to accomplish nearly nothing on that list :( It makes me so sad!!!
Between dealing with my ex and his mood swings, dealing with kids (who are
themselves out of school for the summer), and trying to sell half my belongings
and move out of my house so I can sell it, school hasn’t exactly been my top
priority.
There is a lot going on you can see. My head is kind of
swirling most of the time and I feel quite overwhelmed, like there is a lot
hanging over my head. I HATE that feeling. I am a list maker, a checker-offer.
I like knowing I accomplished things and have them under my belt. Stuff that
hangs in limbo…leaves me feeling anxious :/
So, that is where I am now! Summer is half way down and it
is my goal to AT LEAST test out of my math class, at the bare minimum. The rest
of the school stuff may have to wait. I’m in a bit of a rush to get my house on
the market, hopefully a month from now, so there is a lot happening.
My mental state is….OK. I go on meds and I go off them…that
is just the nature of things I guess. Once my divorce is final (it seems to be
getting dragged out slowly and painfully, unfortunately) I think my mental
state will improve drastically. No longer being attached in any way to a toxic
relationship will help me so much to move forward and try to make positive
changes in my life. Right now I’m still sort of dangling in limbo-land while
things are not finalized. And that is the toughest part!!!
