Starting to taper down on my meds...wahoo!!!

I am so excited. I've been thinking for quite awhile about going off of my meds and wanted to wait until I got into my psychiatrist to talk to her about it. Well, at first she was a little reluctant to go along with it but as we talked and she realized that I have given this a lot of thought she said she was on board with it. Yay! My main reason for wanting to go off meds is just because I feel I need to be 100% sure that I need them. I've been medicated ever since I got out of the hospital (a year and a half ago) and there is no way to know how I will be unless I try to go off them. So that is what I'm doing. I have a good support system around me and little stress in my life right now so I feel this is the best time to try to go off.

We decided to start tapering me back, so I have gone from 10 mg of Zyprexa to 5 mg. So half of what I was previously taking. It's only been a couple of days but I have noticed a difference mainly at night. My mind is much more alert and I find myself wide awake at late hours. I am trying to stay on a regular schedule though because I know that is one of the best things I can do to avoid having a manic episode.

Anyway I am totally excited and cannot wait to see what the future holds!

Whoops, forgot my meds...feeling hypomanic

Well, I had a weird experience the other night. We were out late and I totally forgot my meds. I didn't realize til about 12:30 when I had been laying in bed, tossing and turning and my mind was racing. I got up several times in the night because I just couldn't sleep. I hadn't felt that way in a long time! I just felt so much energy, I wanted to clean my house from top to bottom, I wanted to call everyone that I knew (which of course I didn't because it was the middle of the night.) It was a rough night. I finally wound up going to sleep around 3 am. I never stay up that late anymore and my meds do help me to sleep when I take them. Then the next day I still felt all this pent up energy and just wanted to go, go go. It did eventually get better though. But it was just a strange experience, feeling those hypomanic feelings again. It's been a looooong time since I felt that way.